March 6

6:30 pm Dear diary,
Yesterday I went crazy na? Hmm, I saw Adrenaline yesterday evening. That’s what changed my entire mood. I talked to him. I’m head over heels on him. Njan nannavilla.
I didn’t study anything yesterday. Spend time on internet. I was checking out the visitors to my profile when I found this profile of Dr. Prashanth. He seems to be doing his medicine post graduation at Pondicherry. I was curious. And I thought he might be able to help me at in my studies. He should me very clever to get medicine pg seat at Pondicherry Na? Anyway feeling so anxious. Will he take my friends invitation in the wrong way? I have explained that I don’t usually go around sending friends invitation nor do I accept friends invitation from strangers. Well... let’s wait and see.
Hey gotta go... have to go and have my dinner with someone. None of my roommates are in a pleasant mood.

1:00 am
Should I cal it 7th morning or is it still 6th night??
Hmm... more news... I broke off before na? After dinner I checked out my scrap book. I saw that I had a scrap from Dr. Prashanth. I was all excited and replied to that. At around 10 pm. I got another scrap. And chatted a while via scrap book and then Gmail. He seems nice.
Hey... i’ll write later... really sleepy... buhbye
With love
Me..

March 5

5pm
Dear diary,
I’m losing myself so much for him... him alone... I don’t understand what to do with me... 
Please... please... save me from this... this so painful... loving him knowing that it’s never gonna work out... please...
I want to come out of it... what am I gonna do..???
Each second I’m dreaming about him... making up a life with him...again... knowing that it’s never going to happen... I’m the loser... I know that...
I have gotta stop myself... no more... give me strength!!
Craaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaapppppppppppppp!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I hate myself...
Me...

March 3

Dear diary,
Ohmigosh, do you have any idea what i dreamt today? Well... it was Manu...well...we were at the old school and everything was like we were a couple.hehe.it was funny!! At the end of the dream we were in an embrace... phew...but I should say I liked it... bad me!! But the hilarious part was that later when I messaged him he was saying that his mother was trying for alliance with his brother... haha... how funny it will be if I turn out to be his sister in law??
Something is wrong at home. Amma and Achan don’t seem to be in terms. Well. I am not ready to meddle in that. I think it’s just another fight. I can’t understand what is wrong with them. They are always fighting for one thing or another. Amma says that to understand that I’ll have to marry someone like my father. Well, I seriously doubt that. Because my father is a very unique person. You know what? I have never met anyone with such superior intelligence. But at one point I concur with mother. He is not meant for a family life. Too much of a bachelor spirit is in him- if you can get what I meant!! Now only I remembered one thing. Today yet another proposal came for me. Amma vetoed. He was an engineer or something. She wants me to marry a doctor itself. She says that only another doctor can understand the working hours and such stuff. May be she is right. She is always right in the long run. And anyway I’m not ready for marriage right now.
Life at hostel is actually taking a turn to worse. Now it’s just not the food. My roommates cum best friends are having some problems with me and each other. It really sucks!! Thyroxin and P 32 is not talking with each other. And then Diazepam... that’s another story. She is not mingling with us at all. And in between them is me. And I’m missing them all. Crap!!
Planning to go to Benzoyl peroxide’s home.i’m having tough time here. Know what? I failed for microbiology. I can’t understand how dumb I have turned out to be. No one fails “micro”. Shit!! But I failed. I can’t just say that it’s because I had to practise for skit for youth fest. It’s a very dumb excuse. Everyone else who was there for the skit passed na. I don’t know what to do with me.
Bye for now...
With love,
Me.

March 1

1st March
Dear diary,
Well, yet another day has passed without anything to ornate it. Just another dull day, why is it that my life is not so happening?
I spent some time today gazing up the stars. Oops sorry, my intention was to gaze up the stars but it was cloudy.. I think it is going to rain at night. I suppose that will be nice. Thinking about all these heat. That is another thing I wanted to tell you. Can u feel it? Or are you yet another dumb book? Hmm... Anyways, I was talking about the heat nah? Hmm, the sweat from my head is trickling down, by the side of my ear, finding its way down the sides of my neck, between my breasts down to my tummy and plush... it is falling down or getting absorbed to my tee shirt. Yuck!! And yeah, I’m so smelly. How I hate the heat!! I just hope the summer won’t last long... well, what a dumb hope!! It has just started... the stupid summer is all through April till may... fuck!! I really hope I have my own fan. Now I have to share the fan with another. And even I try to keep my pedestal fan steady but the stupid thing broke down last summer and now it works only in the swing mode.
Last day I was embarrassed in front of whole class because of the stupid heat. I was all so sweaty wherever my backpack touched had to put the bag in class and then go out of the class again to give Prince his prayer beads (he was my classmate and it’s another big story). Damn it but my dress was light cotton and I had no chemise under that... and i was semi nude in that dress... life just so fucking sucks at times. Actually it’s the summer that sucks.phew..... That was a hell lot of swearing my part... sorry God... but it’s so damn not fair.
Then about the rest of the day. Had a very wholesome breakfast and lunch (yeah, yeah... considering that I am at a hostel... I think you get the point.) and therefore devoured on the glass of milk with boost in the evening. Went for paediatric posting. That was fun. Considering I got to play with kids whole morning... gee... tricky afternoon. With a pathology hour through which I mostly slept. And then pharmacology seminars during which I read tee novel. ‘truly, deeply, briefly...” it was just so godamm funny. I enjoyed that novel sooo much...
My plans of studying are not much working. Really... hmmm... i have got just one more month for thr final averages.
Then my regular prayers... “God, help me get over him... its not logical not going to happen and completely nonsensical”
Ps: i gave everyone in my contact list some names from pharmacology text book,heehee... i named him adrenaline... of course that just means to me... well... he sortta perks up my sympathetic na? In every way? ;)
With love,
Me...

introduction...

It's all about Aditi, 23 years old. a medical student. she is everything that we are. a girl who belongs to the upper middle class society of todays Kerala scenario. with a mother and father at home- who are professionals. a grandmother who visits and stays often. a pack of relatives who kill her with boreddom. and a very sweet elder sister and family. she has lots of friends. loves outings. and freaks out a lot. she is a bit bold. tries to put all her feet out of the line all at once. she is in love with guy who doesnt bother with her at all.

lets suppose she was awarded with a new diary on March 1st.. that doesnt mean she didn't write diaries before.., say, her last one got its pages over. and we are gonna peek into her life from march first... lets roll it..