March 5

5pm
Dear diary,
I’m losing myself so much for him... him alone... I don’t understand what to do with me... 
Please... please... save me from this... this so painful... loving him knowing that it’s never gonna work out... please...
I want to come out of it... what am I gonna do..???
Each second I’m dreaming about him... making up a life with him...again... knowing that it’s never going to happen... I’m the loser... I know that...
I have gotta stop myself... no more... give me strength!!
Craaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaapppppppppppppp!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I hate myself...
Me...